Gloomy Dope

Just when he thought sleep finally took over, he wakes up with disturbing dreams and found himself transformed. It was no dream. By now, fear silently settles down in air.

Sometimes it make me sad, though, you being gone.
I have to constantly remind myself that some souls
aren't meant to be together, thats all. Their paths are
just too contrary, and when they fly away the part of
you that knows it was wrong, does agitates... and the
place you live is much more drab and empty that they
are gone.

A distant rumble of thunder. He pauses and gazes off, senses a presence, looks over his shoulder, steps out of bed there is abstract shadows smiling inscrutable. As he watches, a brilliant glow builds behind the shadows.

Shadows or just plain alive memories?

The image rips free, charred to ash in the blink of an eye. He staggers back against the glare. Anxiety pours in whipping every thought into the air. The glow in dark seemed like a large vacuum cleaner -- voices, images, locales, music twirling and twisting -- if it ain't nailed down, it gets sucked down the hole towards the light. He fights with his vision but the suction drags him closer and closer. The more he tries to grasp the view the more he gets sucked down an endless tunnel at impossible speed, the roar of tunnel mixing with his ROAR-out scream, closer and closer to the light...
... and erupting out the other side into total silence and a blissful valley. The fairy lady standing in front of his eyes, with crystal utopia in her eyes and forever undying smile. Beautiful beyond description. All he gets to hear now are the gentle sounds of innocence and wind flapping through her hair.

But there are times when I curse her
for the dreams she left behind...
... dreams where I am lost in a warm place
with haunting memories.

With the change in season a lone figure stands in the same valley. Nothing for a million miles but sky and darkness.

An ocean so big it strikes me dumb,
waves so quiet they strike me deaf.
Sunshine so bright, it strikes me blind.
A place that is blue beyond reason.
A dark maze... darker that can possibly
exist. Darker than my mind can possibly
grasp!

I am terrified there is no way home.

He closes his eyes just to run away and with a shiver opens up to his room. Tears had left him long back, and a severe painful headache takes over, which felt continuous hammering harder with each breathe. Lights up the fag, and blows off gallons of smoke into that incredibly mystic dark realm. He bestirs and steps out to the cliff from his room. Peers up at the stars.

YOU! I know you're in that place.
You can see it too. I used to look up
at the stars for you just after the sunset.
But you're right there and I'm here,
thats goddammit right. And...
I shall make sure the night wont repeat again,
the day I'll cut myself free!

Comes back and records down :

Some people do spend their whole lives together,
while some....


DON'T!